A big thing happened last night.

I went to a party- Olivet style.

Now this may seem routine for a college student, but being surrounded by people is not fun for me. I retreat. I am a wallflower.

I try to get over this, and be around people, but its not working. Everyone seemed to have such a good time, dancing, jumping, rapping. . . even crowd surfing. . . and the floor visibly shook! (The aptartment downstairs saw their ceiling moving. . .)
With all this fun, I clung to the wall hoping not to be noticed (but secretly wanting to be dancing as well.)

Years ago, I would have danced, not caring who was watching. but not now. I'm too self-consconsious and just feel awkward. (After 20 minutes I tried to leave but my friend persuade me to stay for another 15 minutes.)

35 minutes. . . that's all I could handle. . .

(I'm sad now. I wish I could have done better.)